Saturday, September 8, 2012

The Days before blogging...

So remember those days before there was Blogging, and before the days when people posted their lives on facebook? Those days when we would write our thoughts and experiences down on paper, with a pen or some sort of non-electronic writing utensil? Well I did just that last night!!!!! =)

A long long time ago (December 1st 2005), this book was given to me by a very dear friend, Shannon. It has been one of the greatest gifts I have been given. It was given to me at a time when I needed an outlet and couldn't get it out. So It has some of my deepest(darkest) feelings in it. I have only filled up about half the pages. But quantity is not what this book is about. 

It has things in it from very personal thoughts to conference notes, to odd drawings because I couldn't put what I was feeling into words. 

The other night I was having one of those deeps nights and I needed to write those feelings down. Not to advertise them to the world but to write them down where they will always be. The emotions were high (in a very good way) and I wanted to get them out in a very healthy productive way. I had forgotten what it was like to just write. And to write things down that you know no one will ever read (not even you Mr. Scrust). Unless for some reason someone were to steal it and betray my far too, easily given trust. Just write and write until the feelings are out there, and you can think without them clogging in your brain and heart. Or until you can no longer stand to hold the pen any longer.  I even wrote it all legibly, well at least more legibly than I usually write. 
It was nice to write, actually put pen to paper and write. I am not an author, I barely passed my English 1010 class, but I like to think that what I write is congressional library quality. Even though I will not let anyone read it or judge it in a way like that. It is great writing just like I am a phenomenal singer when no one else is around to tell me other wise. 
Anyway...Love my journal, I love having the ability to read and write. I love having friends who know what is needed. And I just love great friends. Friends make the world go round. Thank you world, Thanks you friends, Thank you mom and dad, thank you teachers who taught me how to read and write, thank you God for giving me emotion and everything else in this world!!!!!